"you might not be his first, his last, or his only. he's cared about someone else before you and possibly will again, but if he cares for you now, then wat else matters? he's not perfect and you aren't either, and the two of you will never be perfect, but if he can make you laugh at least once, hold on to him and give him the most you can. he is probably not going to quote poetry, he might no be thinking about you every second of the day, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you can break. so don't hurt him, don't change him and don't expect more than he can give. don't over analyze, smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he's not there." - LAC

...AMEN!

i never wana change a thing about this . . .

and our new sons . . .

# 1 - Bub Lee

#2 - Rick James

hey its KiLLA's 17th YAY!!!

gettin' sick of this life, but i kno that there will be better days! im just hopin' for the best, but expectin' the worst! the only way to live nowadays...

faith, hope, & love

After awhile you learn
the subtle difference between
holding a hand and chaining a soul
and you learn that love doesn't mean possession
and company doesn't mean security.
And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts
and presents aren't promises and you begin to accept
your defeats with your head up and your eyes ahead
with the grace of an adult not the grief of a child.
And you learn to build your roads today
because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans
and futures have ways of falling down in mid-flight.
After awhile you learn that even sunshine
burns if you get too much so you plant your
own garden and decorate your own soul
instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you really can endure
that you really are strong
and you really do have worth
and you learn
and you learn

i guess i had to learn the hard way